Just nuked my homelab's MITM proxy setup with HAProxy 2.8—why does my anxiety spike when I break TLS pinning?

so i spent 12 hrs yesterday reconfiguring my homelab's mitm proxy to use haproxy 2.8 instead of 1.8 and tbh it was a hot mess but i did it. like the certs are finally chaining properly and the ocsp stapling isn't throwing errors anymore. but bruh when i broke tls pinning on my test container just to see if the logging would catch it... my heart rate literally jumped 20bpm. is that normal? i mean i get that tls pinning is supposed to be a pain but why does it feel like i'm cheating on a test or something? someone tell me this isn't just me being neurotic. also why do i care so much about haproxy's ssl deep inspection when it's just a hobby project? maybe mental health professionals need to stop telling us to 'just relax' when we're dealing with cryptographic edge cases. like wtf even is a 'session resumption ticket' at 2am anyway