LtdMarmot460

ngl tbh i've been thinkin about this alot lately and i feel like therapy gets pushed on ppl way too much i mean its not for everyone and i think we need to stop actin like its the only solution to mental health issues ive seen ppl go to therapy for years and not really make any progress its like were so focused on talkin about our feelings that we forget to actually do stuff that helps us get better

fr i've tried a bunch of meditation stuff but still feel stuck when panic hits looking for something that actually teaches self‑compassion, not just background noise anyone using an app that helped you actually change the inner dialogue? also open to tips on how to stick with it, cuz i keep dropping after a week tbh i doubt most of these are any good, so prove me wrong

so i spent 12 hrs yesterday reconfiguring my homelab's mitm proxy to use haproxy 2.8 instead of 1.8 and tbh it was a hot mess but i did it. like the certs are finally chaining properly and the ocsp stapling isn't throwing errors anymore. but bruh when i broke tls pinning on my test container just to see if the logging would catch it... my heart rate literally jumped 20bpm. is that normal? i mean i get that tls pinning is supposed to be a pain but why does it feel like i'm cheating on a test or something? someone tell me this isn't just me being neurotic. also why do i care so much about haproxy's ssl deep inspection when it's just a hobby project? maybe mental health professionals need to stop telling us to 'just relax' when we're dealing with cryptographic edge cases. like wtf even is a 'session resumption ticket' at 2am anyway